16 April 2007
Must. Do. Something
Help me out bloggers. I want more from my life that this. I get up at 6:30 - go to work around 7, get there around 8, start around 9, leave around 6, im home around 7, I sometimes eat, sometimes cook, sometimes do dishes, recently i water my plants, sit and knit, or read a magazine, rarely watch TV, play with the rats for an hour, and then go to bed. I spend my day avoiding getting pissed off, I avoid people, the TV, and sometimes i avoid eating, because i dont want to sit in a room with self opinionated people who cant just let something go. But what choice do i have? We can move into a cabin next door, but we will still get no privacy. Its not a good thing. I dont want to be forced to spend time with people. That way, when i do see people, i dont get sick of them in 2 seconds flat. So im thinking that i should work from home? But doing what? How can i make money from staying home all day? Should i sell my car? Do i need it? What to do, what to do..... I dont want to work in administration my entire life. I want to make things, I can make silver jewellery when i put my mind to it, or i can knit things, i do have an imagination for things if i try, but i dont think i will make money from it, and thats the key to life for the time being. I dont feel happy and i havent for a long time. Should i go home?